It's kind of a struggle to stay awake right now at work and the letters on the computer screen are blurring more than they should. I'm trying to keep my mind on the job and I get kind of panicky when I realize that I'm not aware of what's going on here. It's a struggle between relaxing when it's quiet and keeping my mind alert when necessary. I usually end up being tense for the whole twelve hours. I'd like to say it's because I'm working a night shift, my third one in a row at that but I have to admit that I have this problem on day shifts as well. I don't know if anybody else feels like this or how to tell anybody. I'm pretty sure I'd get belittled because of my inability to cope.