28 October 2010


I don't know what that was for. I just came off my night shift and drank a cup of coffee.

"But you're a tea drinker!" my internal monologue begins.

"I know self! But I want to win the McDonald's Monopoly game! Sacrifices must be made!"

"But coffee after your night shift???"

"I never said it was a good idea!"

I mean, really, McDonald's daily just to get the Monopoly stickers? Maybe I'll win $100: You have to be in it to win it (Although my chances don't look that great right now). I have a feeling it'll be a nice way to procrastinate when November rolls around.

"What's that? I have another 1000 words to write and it's 23:00? Time for chicken nuggets!"

There was no real point to this entry... Carry on.

17 October 2010

Straight Through My Heart

I drive a lot. Across the prairies.

If you know anything about prairies they are generally flat, few rolling hills, and the industry is agricultural so most of what you see tends to be livestock or crops. People live far apart, even groups of people so towns and cities tend to be further apart. If you can imagine that in your brain, then you can imagine that it can get very boring.

My life is pretty complicated right now which is the only explanation why I drive over 700km per week, so you can understand why I might need a lot of good music, or good company while I drive across the mostly flat and sparsely populated landscape. My music requirements for driving is energetic, fast-paced music to counteract the lull of the land. I have created a driving play list that typically consists of the latest Medicine Hat clubbing songs, or loud and angry rock songs.

Over the years I've come to accept that I'm crap at making playlists. They're so eclectic in tempo and styles and moods that when people listen to my mixes people are left scratching their heads a bit. Probably why I am not a DJ, though, if you're ever in my hometown and go out to The Club (yes, the club is called "The Club") I'm fairly certain I can do a much better job. I also don't recommend appropriate music for certain moods so I've just started to recommend music I like and let people get what they want out of it.

I don't need iTunes for this!

After purchasing an iPhone I was obligated to get iTunes. I didn't want to give into the Apple trend, but since I discovered the Genius feature it's been hard not to like it. I pick a song I like and BOOM. Playlist. And it's been really easy to create lists of songs for moods or situations... I'm referring to writing here, not having a sad playlist for my self-pity.

Regardless of whether I'm listening to a self-made playlist or using a Genius playlist, sometimes it's that one song that inspires me for a scene. I've been making notes of what songs I listen to at that moment so when I come back to it I can get lost in my head and then focus on what I was writing and where I wanted to take that scene or chapter. Sometimes it makes it into the "soundtrack" of what I'm working on.

I think everyone can agree that nothing beats a well placed song, or a melody that captures a mood perfectly, or a theme that we can recognize anywhere (Star Wars anyone?). Reading the forums on NaNoWriMo about music, and tunes that inspire, the competition of who is listening to the most Indie or most Alternative music gets more fierce with every response. Who has the better play list, who can recommend the most unknown bands, etc etc. Let me say this: I LIKE THE BACKSTREET BOYS AND I WILL ALWAYS RECOMMEND THEM FOR YOUR PLAY LIST.

13 October 2010

Mission #75: Complete My Latest Fanfiction Project

Completed yesterday!

My fic is called "Only The Top Matters", posted to Fanfiction.net.

I wrote it over a year ago based off a prompt from one of my LiveJournal friends. I'm not sure why I didn't get around to it sooner, but Sunday I finally sat down, took a red pen to my paper, and finally typed up the last changes.


It's based on one of my favourite female characters in the X-men comic series: Marrow. She has such a fascinating, complex story and character that I can't help but not love her. Though some of the recent changes Marvel is making with her and her character leaves you scratching your head in confusion...

It was good for my self-esteem to finally follow through on a project and finish it, even though it was a small fic. I finally feel like I can concentrate fully on the upcoming NaNoWriMo next month, and after this competition is complete I think I'd like to commit to my many other unfinished projects.

10 October 2010

How to Write on a Sunday

Step One: Make a clear, manageable goal.
Step Two: Create Zen-like environment.
Step Two-B: Eliminate as many distractions as possible.
Step Three: Make a cup of tea.
Step Four: Complete goal outlined in Step One.

Optional Step Five: Keep making tea until Step Four happens.


09 October 2010

Happy Turkey Weekend!

Happy Turkey Weekend everybody.

It's bizarre to be back at my parents' house again. My TV's on, in my old room, in its old spot. I'm using a computer in the old spot. It feels like I never left. Even my husband is still not here for Thanksgiving, just like every other year.


Like really.

07 October 2010

Not Settled

My head's all over the place. I'm not settled anywhere, I'm not happy with my employment situation, and I'm missing my husband. I guess that's why I'm throwing myself into NaNoWriMo a bit more than I would normally.

I have been really stressing on whether or not I should publish my NaNo chapters or portions of it as I go. There are a couple problems with this:

  1. I open myself up to the risk of having someone plagiarize because there wouldn't be an official copyright on it
  2. If I ever did want to publish the novel a publisher may never pick up the work because it could be seen as "previously published". Apparently that doesn't sell.
  3. The quality of the "publish as you go" would be really shit, and is that how I want to attract publishers/agents? Probably not. (Also aware that this is a pipe dream)
  4. Doing this might (most likely) demotivate me. When I publish anything on FF.net an I don't get any feedback or favourites I become really disappointed. Like, really. I know this isn't a good thing but if I can't get any acknowledgement on the playground how am I supposed to get any when I work? 
I  could be over thinking all of this as well. Like I said, I'm a bit all over the place personally at the moment. I could be just being hard on myself because I feel like I should have written more in the last couple years and have written more in the last couple months period. But it's hard to find a writing routine when your life just has no routine: I feel like I'm just couch surfing at the moment with no familiar nook to call my own. 

But sometimes I get these looks and responses when I tell people I am trying to write a novel that give you the impression that you should just give up. Night shifts make life really difficult and I know I get cranky and extra sensitive after a couple shifts, but sometimes I feel like it would be easier to cave to the pressure to give up on my hobbies and do what every other nurse does... which seems to be gardening in the summer and baking in the winter.... 

My last thought on my life is: why do people call getting married "settling down"? I feel so far from feeling settled. Like, what does that even look like? 


04 October 2010

Getting Excited for NaNoWriMo!

So October is upon me and I have nothing to report where my progress is concerned. I have less than 100 days to complete the remaining 40 odd goals I had set out to do two and a half years ago. October is a significant month because it's the month before November: National Novel Writing Month. It will be my fourth year doing this but I am feeling a little torn between finishing my 101 Things and starting up a new novel.

A person would think that 101 Things would take priority, however, I can't just ignore National Novel Writing Month. My online circle is already buzzing and getting started on their novels and practicing their word sprints and I'm right there with them with planning my own story in my head already. I've even did my very first word sprint two days ago!

I am really aiming to meet the 50k words that I made the first year I participated, as well as make it to a few write ins. I've convinced my Mom to lend me her Acer laptop for next month so that I have a better keyboard to work with while I'm on the road. Don't get me wrong, I love my iPhone, and the touch screen is super handy (who doesn't love a QWERTY keyboard at their finger tips?) but the size of the screen and auto-correct frustrate me sometimes.

I'm really glad this is happening this time of year because it really takes the edge off the doom and gloom of fall and winter for me (read: hate winter). I'm not so secretly hoping my friend Denton will host his online write-ins again because they were very motivational and helped me to be efficient when I made the effort to write.

I encourage everyone to participate, even if you have no vested interest in becoming a novelist, author, writer, etc. It's good fun and really challenges you: National Novel Writing Month.