31 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #46

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

Wear outrageous clothes like Lady Gaga Jessie J, or Nicki Minaj. 

Create an empire like Oprah:

And speak my mind like Don Cherry, Top 10 Memorable Quotes:

(Just as an aside, check out Don Cherry's Top Suits)

30 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #45

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?

Because mistakes hurt. Doesn't matter if it's other people or ourselves, they hurt, because more often than not, you'll lose something in the mistake or the fall out of the mistake.

Lessons learned, but they're always painful.

On the other hand, we need to remind ourselves:

28 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #44

When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?

There is no set time, it all depends on the magnitude of the decision, but I definitely would let decisions go on and on and on for months.

Granted, I tend to be a more impatient person than most, so I tend to make decisions a little sooner than most, even though I don't always let on. The last three months before I moved I felt awful. I had made up my mind and paperwork and such was just getting in the way, but I was stuck in limbo. It was the same when I quit my job and had to give a month's notice. Stuck in limbo again, waiting for the end.

Limbo feels like torture. Seriously.

Often I try to follow my intuition, which I'm not always good at interpreting (but I'm getting better!), on big or small decisions. It's kind of like following your heart, but not. It's not a reckless abandonment of reason, but it's a general feeling of rightness, and if I truly follow my gut, it's hardly wrong.

I get mixed up when I let other people try to give me their opinions on the situation, suggest what the right thing to do is, or place more weight on some obligations that already had enough weight on them, and so forth. My inner voice becomes drowned out by the noise and then I try to be practical and rationalize the pros and cons for the decision I was going to make. In essence it extends my natural decision making process by at least triple, because 80% of the time I come to the same conclusion I had when I first reacted with my gut.

27 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #43

What is the difference between being alive and truly living?

So, I'm not sure why this question was asked if the people who put together the 50 Questions have already answered it in the above hyperlink.

It's a nice little list and something admirable to live up to, but it feels like somebody else's recipe for happiness. Not that there isn't some cross over onto my list but it just feels like you need to do ALL of the things on their list to be truly living. Maybe I only need about half to feel truly alive?

Just putting that out there.

Also, that question makes me think of Braveheart:

24 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #41 & #42

If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?

I would spend the time with my husband.

Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?

No. Even if I gained the fame and the appeal, they wouldn't last either: Everybody gets old and everybody's 15 minutes are eventually up. 

I would rather make the best with what I have and live my life to its fullest, even those last 10 years that could be traded. I hope to be healthy and happy for all those years.

23 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #39 & #40

Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?


When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?

When I made the decision to move to the UK. 

21 August 2012

20 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #38

Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?

I would love a balance of working hard when I'm at work, but not having to work that often.Or something like that.

In the previous question I answered I made a statement that it was important to continue going to work, even if you didn't need to. I wouldn't turn my hobby into a job either as I'm pretty sure I would like it less, even though there's that quote that says "Do what you love and you'll never work a day in your life." I had to Google that quote because I couldn't remember the exact wording of it, but then I stumbled across this Bad Career Advice article that summed up what I was thinking in a much better way.

During this lack of employment I've thought a lot about what I want to do for a job and career. I've relaxed a lot about the turning the writing as part of my career for some of the reasons that were mentioned in the article. It became a job that I didn't want to do anymore. I will still endeavour to write and publish a book, but it won't let it become a job on top of my job.

I know there will never be a job I truly love, but there is a job I want to come home from where I feel satisfied that I did my best and that my work felt somewhat meaningful. We spend so much of our lives at work that I don't think that's something unreasonable to want and aim for.

19 August 2012

I've wanted to write this blog entry for a while, touching on this subject, but I've struggled with it for a while now. I don't know... I've lost the inspiration?

Or maybe I'm just wanting to take my life in a new direction?

I've tried my best to make this blog a reflection of my interests, and to network with other writers, and I don't think I've done very well. I've had a lot of other things on my plate (granted, everybody does), and now that I'm in a new place I feel like a lot of what drove in my old zone doesn't drive me at the moment.

Perhaps this is normal with moving to another country? Or out of your comfort zone?

I've tried to look into how to change my blog's layout and structure to accommodate the shift in focus, interest, and motivation I'm experiencing and it hasn't worked too well. It doesn't look like I can erase anything either and start from scratch. Not that I necessarily want to, but I can't seem to change too much with ease.

But I guess the question is, do I want to keep doing this? Do I want to keep blogging, being so connected, and trying to stay on top of everything? I hate to start something and not finish it, whether it's a goal, a project, or a job.

Maybe it's a lull, a bad week, or I'm missing something?

I know this post sounds a bit rambly and self-pitying, but I've felt this for most of August already. When I read my old posts from this year and last, and from the beginning there feels like a change in how I write, and I don't like it. I feel so pretentious in the last 6 months in my posts and nothing feels genuine at the moment, and for me there's no point in this if I'm not sincere.

17 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #37

If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?

No. I'd take a leave of absence for a couple of months to just chill out, but I would go back. Firstly, a million dollars isn't all that much money. You buy one house and one brand new vehicle and poof, half it's gone. So if you don't manage the money it can and will disappear quite quickly.

Secondly, even if I got a a billion dollars I wouldn't quit my job. Having been unemployed for a couple months, life gets really boring quite quickly. There are some daily activities you do to fill your day, and yes you indulge in your hobbies, but when that's all you have life gets pretty dull. A job kind of gives purpose and routine to your life that's necessary, even if you don't need to work, per se.

And lastly, how do you relate to people if you're not working? Working regularly grounds you, it doesn't bring you down. I hate it when celebrities give advice on every day problems about money management, or healthy life styles because most of the time they're paying somebody else to manage those aspects of their own life.

And as a side note, a study of lottery winners showed that they weren't any happier than before they received the money. That just says to me you need a few other things in your life yet.

16 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #36

Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?

No, I don't think so. I think there are too many shades of gray in life that good and evil aren't as clear cut.

It's too easy to say "killing is wrong, people who kill are evil" but what about that person in an abusive relationship that's just had enough and kills his or her partner? What about governments still using the death penalty? Is any of that evil or is some of that good?

It's a pretty basic answer for such a complicated question, but it's another one of the philosophical questions that you and I could sit down and debate this over a bottle of wine.

15 August 2012

"Tango Shoes" by Bif Naked

Girl power before girl power was cool.

I've seen her in concert twice now, and both times I was shocked at how much personality a person of her height has.

14 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #34 & #35

Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?


Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?

I read a quote somewhere that it was your behaviour that makes you a good person, not your beliefs. I liked it, mostly because it was always something I wanted to say for a number of years but could never put it so concisely.

I went to school and worked with a lot of "religious" people who thought themselves to be morally upstanding people. I found them to be especially closed minded and impractical in their approach to the world we live in, and the worst, hypocritical. I learned of so many couples that "saved themselves for marriage" but had done everything sexual except intercourse... Really? I mean, I could care less what they did, but that they had the nerve to be condescending towards me and others because we hadn't "saved ourselves for marriage" was a bit much. 

For a long time I didn't mention that I had any religious affiliation because I didn't want to be classed with people who promoted love and forgiveness but were quick to judge your life style choices.  I wanted people to get to know me, and that I was a pretty open person, that I tried to live a balanced lifestyle, that just happened to include religion and spirituality. I believe that a healthy sense of spirituality is important, that it should have a place in your life, but shouldn't become your life.

Over the years of learning about religions, the history of religion, and religious people, I now know that it has always been about power: control over territory, resources, and people. Religion has been a long standing platform for people to exert power and control and it's just been history repeating itself over and over again because someone has a new interpretation about how life should be lived.

Religious bodies continue to rope people in today because it promises the non-tangible needs to people that they are searching for and want fulfilled: a sense of belonging, hope, forgiveness, a home, charity, respite, etc etc. Innocent when you look at them this way, but quickly twisted by those in authoritative positions.

As my dad would say, "Don't hand your brain in at the door. God gave us a brain for a reason."

13 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #32 & #33

If not now, then when?

Whenever I feel like it's important enough to do.

If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?

 I fee like this is a "What are you waiting for?" sort of questions.

My answer kind of goes back to Question 9 in that there are many things in my life that are out of my control. I need other people to pull their heads out of their rears and process some paperwork so I can get on with my life and achieve a few things.

I'm not as stressed out about what I haven't achieved yet, not at this point in my life, because there is a time and place for me to write a book, learn how to knit, and see the rest of the world. What I am doing day after day is a small step towards my larger goals, and that's running, going to the gym, eating well, writing 500 words a day, and so forth.

I'm pretty confident that everything else will work out the way it's supposed to.

10 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #31

At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?

This is a very difficult question to answer. I can't recall a single moment in time, and I can't pin point a section in my life either where I have felt more passionate and alive then any previous moment.

I mean, as I get older I feel like I'm more aware of the moments in my life, but I'm not able to in the middle of a good time stop and say, "I'm alive!". It's usually moments before I'm going to sleep that I think, "Life is good."

09 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #30

What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special?

I can't really recall having one specific memory that makes me happy. I remember being content a lot, even though there was a lot working against my family (my dad had lost his job for a while). I remember going on a lot of adventures (it was mostly just camping, but they were adventures for me) and sitting in my room colouring a lot. I enjoyed those parts of my childhood the most, though I can't tell you why or what makes them special. 

Waterton, AB

08 August 2012

"All Hell For A Basement"

This song is about where I grew up. "All hell for a basement" refers to the massive gas pockets that sit underneath and allowed people to light and heat their homes for pennies for many years giving them a quality of life that not many other cities in Alberta had. People like to call it the "Medicine Hat advantage" which is slowly disappearing.

07 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #29

Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?

Five years ago would have been 2007. What was I even doing July 2007?

Working a lot. Going out a lot. I vaguely remember the things I was upset about, but if I really think about it, not much of what happened then really matters now. It's like life has just worked out the way it's supposed to be. Five years from now it'll probably be the same situation: I'll think back, sort of remember what bothered me, and come to realize that life has worked out exactly the way it was supposed to.

I just need to keep reminding myself to be relaxed when things crop up in my life currently that weren't planned for (car repairs, paperwork not going through, no job....). In the words of one of my former co-workers, "This too shall pass."

06 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #27 & #28

Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?

I think people can debate this question until the ends of time. I think there are truths that need to be challenged, and some that can simply be taken at face value. I also believe that truth is subjective: what's true for one person may not be true for another, so it's up to you what you want to challenge.

Has your greatest fear ever come true?

Not sure... I don't really feel comfortable describing my greatest fear, so this answer is going to be somewhat lame. 

It probably hasn't, so I should stop worrying about it as much as I do.

I've come to realize that a lot of my answers are becoming shorter and shorter, but some of these questions feel a little bit like they are repeating themselves. Others just don't feel like they require that much thought, which is why I've started to double up on questions for some days. Just an FYI. You know.

04 August 2012

Well, the first week of the Olympics is over and I’m sometimes thankful that I don’t work; otherwise I wouldn’t be able to watch so much of the Olympics.

On the other hand, because I don’t work I haven’t been able to really afford a ticket to go see one of the events. Well, after discussing it at length, my husband and I came to the conclusion that even if I had been working and we had had the money, it would still be an unreasonable amount of money to get a decent seat to see something half decent. 

On top of that, travelling in London on a normal day is ridiculous, with a few million extra people in the vicinity I don’t really want to imagine what travelling around there would be like. 

While I was perusing the tickets last month the recommendation was to arrive at the grounds two hours before the event began. A reason was never given as to why. Along with massive crowds and then having to wait around, and then you get hungry or thirsty and have to use the toilets or buy overpriced food.
All of this stress for the money we were paying didn’t make much sense. I have had a fabulous view from the comfort of my living room with a nice glass of wine. I’ve always been excited for and about the Olympic games so I don’t need to be there to enjoy it. 

Goal not completed, but happy all the same. 

PS. Go Team Canada and Deutschland!

03 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #25 & #26

What are you most grateful for?

That I have what I do and I don't get what I probably deserve, which is a lot less than what I have.

Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?

I would rather lose all of my old memories. After having worked with many people who have dementia of various forms and at various stages I can see that people are still who they are: they are still able to laugh, make friends, and enjoy the company of other people. Or if they have a less than sunny disposition, they still find things to grump about, still sit in the corner glaring at people, and still give all the nurses a hard time.

My point is, that old memories are valuable, but so long as you can make new memories, I don't think it would be that horrible.

02 August 2012

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind - #24

Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?

Definitely losing touch with a friend that lives close by is worse. In my experience there's very little closure involved and so you're always left wondering what happened, or why, or what did I do wrong? There's always this awkward "Hi, how are you? Haven't seen you in a while." sort of conversation when you do run into each other again which has often ended for me in a "Give me a call for a cup of coffee." and I never have the guts to say, "How about you call me, because I've left you messages, sent you texts, and messages over FB."

Moving away and having great distances between friends is not a big deal. Phone plans have become cheaper, you can easily and cheaply text across distances, Facebook has made it easier to share day to day information as well as pictures, and Skype is basically free. You talk when you can and there seems to be an understanding that if they other person isn't able to it's because they are busy. If you lose touch a little bit it doesn't hurt as bad because that is what happens when you add distance between people.